Yeah guess who's installation was given a gold star... mine, thats complete bullshit since when does art have to be about a cause. Aaaanyway this isn't what I came hear to say, I came hear mainly horrified that middle aged people still smoke copius amounts of pot and drink until they spew on the kitchen floor.

these people are mainly amazing, they can sustain a highly intellectual topic and have 5 joints under their belt. While I was all shades of fucked-up. There was no chance that I could keep up with these topics, even if I was straight.

Too bad the wine selection was terrible, white wine or pinot noir. Fucking terrible, I was struggling down white wine all night. Their is no way I would ever fucking touch pinot noir ever again, I mean total wankers tend to drink it, but don't realize it tastes fucking god awful.

So I was selling my deer painting, and the guy hadn't picked it up for like a month, so I took it with me to Lilyfield. 3 days later I painted over the fucker, I fucking hate that deer. no fuckers, it is not the best thing I have ever created. Well it's gone now, and I've started a new one over the top of it, A text based painting.

anyhow, I haven't been doing much. Kind of loosing faith in art school because of the bullshit I have to sift through until friday afternoons FDA lecture, the studio is the only non-wankered subject. So last week I stayed in bed, or filmed parts of my film. I can't imagine how fucking jaded I'd be by now if I had have went to COFA.

So yeah It's been mainly hangin' out drinking beer and gin and watching John Waters and faster pussycat kill kill. But I need money badly, I've applied for about 7 jobs over the internet and in-person, but yeah nothing yet. I am worried about cigarettes, I had my last one last night.

Centerlink go through now, I need taxpayers money.